I did it – as promised -I burned up the past ! Well, truthfully, I ripped into a hundred tiny pieces and threw it in the garbage….I had 2 choices- burn up the past while the girls are awake or wait until they are asleep. I didn’t think “burning up the past” was exactly the most fire-safe example to set for my kids and it’s the dead of winter and turned very cold again and I am way too big of a pussy to stand out in the cold if I don’t have to – even if I have a tiny fire to keep me warm.
Oh that felt good!!! Oh so very, very good! Quite frankly, the past is very embarrassing.. at least my darkest past. Like I have said many times before I have always lived in a perpetual state of fear and reading about the ridiculous fears I had 10 years ago … if time-travel was possible I would send a metaphorical back in time bitch-slap to my silly whiny little self. Just as I am fortunate now I was fortunate then
but just too afraid to see it.
My past is a true testament of the Law of Attraction…. I spent a life living in fear and the Universe gave me something to REALLY be afraid of… a child with a chronic, degenerative disease that has no cure L
That’s where this new name “Finding Fearless” comes from… in my darkest of dark days in dealing with Rowan’s diagnosis I realized that I didn’t want to live a life in Fear… I didn’t want to raise children in an environment of fear. I didn’t want Rowan to feel bad that her condition causes me debilitating fear.
Do I still have silly little fears? Of course I do but it’s much easier to check myself now… much easier to have a healthy grasp on perspective. So excited to REALLY work on putting my FEAR behind me, my INSECURITY to rest… time to LIVE IN THE MOMENT ONCE AND FOR ALL!!