Well, if I haven’t whined about it enough already – I will remind you, kind reader, that my husband has been home for 3 days since the 10th of October – and up until this morning I was feeling pretty bleak… everything was feeling like a chore… even things I enjoy – I just felt kind of like a dirty used up sponge.
Apparently, my almost 5 year old girl is picking up on these vibes ’cause she was awfully hard to motivate this morning. I said “get dressed” 622 times, “put on your boots” 454 times, put on your coat 578 times, get your back-pack 322 times (p.s. she forgot her back pack so apparently I didn’t say it enough,lol). It took us 45 minutes to get out the door – thank goodness I had planned on running a fairly un-important errand before she had to be at skating and we could skip the errand!
So, I had told my oldest that on the last day of skating (which consists of a 1/2 hour skating lesson and a 1 1/2 hour pre-school type thing) I would stay and watch her skate… I intended to duck out towards the end but by the time we rushed home and picked up her back pack we were already late. I told her that she took too long getting ready and I couldn’t stay and watch…. she was hurt – I felt like crap – got a little teary – but I stood my ground. I had my youngest at the sitter and now had an hour and a half to myself – to run a couple of errands and grab a coffee.
One of the errands had me going to a craft store and about 2 minutes in I found myself enjoying the Christmas Carols playing in the store, and about 10 minutes in my guilt over not staying to watch had completely subsided. There’s a reason that they tell mamas to put their own oxygen masks on first so that they can better attend to their children … This was me putting on an oxygen mask and seeing to my needs first – all in an effort to be better… better mom, better wife, better at my job.
Was my situation as dire as a plane going down? Maybe not…. but yikes it sure felt darn close, lol!!
Just do it. Just put the oxygen mask on – take a deep breath for yourself – do whatever it takes to feel like a competent person again! You won’t regret it! And EVERYONE including your kids will thank you for it… well, they probably won’t actually say “thanks mom for finding a way to not go completely off-your-rocker” but the love and good behaviour you get when you parent from a more sane locale will be all the thanks you need!